During this time of transition, I have said a lot of things. Some out of fear, some out of faith, some out of frustration, some out of decisiveness, and still some out of trying to wrap my natural mind around what has been going on.
Things have not been as the seemed or were supposed to be.
Stepping out on faith is a battle. Battle between your spiritual and natural minds. Your natural mind wants to see all the negative around you, the potential for how things can go wrong, and keep you wrapped in emotions and fear. Where your spiritual mind pushes to elevate your consciousness, jerks you out of the blues, and tell you to keep moving out of the valley of fear.
As a human, it is hard to shut my mouth at all times, especially when something or someone challenges my knowledge and rationale of thinking. I guess because being subject to years of mental abuse, I like to be reassured my thought process is in tact. So, I will voice those concerns. Also in part because I talk my way through situations, out of the natural back into the spiritual. I don't want to come off as complaining, it's not.
I am so thankful for the 10 wonderful years I spent with Sampson, my beloved rottie.
I am thankful for the love, encouragement, and financial support I receive from my parents.
I am thankful for unemployment helping me survive this past year.
I am thankful for people who love and support me.
I am thankful for what I do have, who I am, where I am going, and this part of the process.
Thank you all who love and support me. Not many people understand me, but I'm cool with that.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Trust in ???
When times get tough, who or what do you trust in? Where do you pull strength from to continue? Where do you seek counsel and advice to better understand?
Life is a bumpy ride for everyone. We are all people moving. Some have understanding of their true purpose and some don't. Some are walking in truth and some not. Some have everything they could desire materially and some are depleted of moral consciousness. The truth is we are all hurting people navigating through life. Life and who ever choose to become an accomplice to it, can have a time with you making you feel as though you are never good enough, strong enough, intelligent or pretty enough. It can make you feel like killing yourself or even more dangerous, slip into a comma where you are physically alive, but dead or sleep on the inside.
In this journey of my life, I talk with thousands of people who possess the power to overcome and defeat anything that comes their way in life. Some of us have never truly known what it is to have a really hard life, other than not making enough money. I fall guilty of being a complainer of the lack of finances and not being thankful of having a roof over my head, food on the table and gas in the tank! I take my personal stock and say I am blessed.
I choose in this life, to trust not in what I can see, but in the power that is working on my behalf to navigate my life in the way it is supposed to go. After all, it was all preplanned by God. If it was all preplanned by God, then I choose to trust, that at this very precise moment, I just came through one of the most challenging weekends in 2009. After a lot of promises by man, I have endured betrayal, abandonment, and lies that we have all encountered. I lost my closest confidant. Through it all I took the time to mourn, but now, I am back.
When the situation around me ceases to exhibit peace I know it is coming from one source. That source is not truth, has never been and will never be. After I dried my eyes, I sit here erected in my posture, head up and smiling. I trust in the plan maker. I trust in He who gave me life, purpose and power to walk in His glory. I trust...again.
Life is a bumpy ride for everyone. We are all people moving. Some have understanding of their true purpose and some don't. Some are walking in truth and some not. Some have everything they could desire materially and some are depleted of moral consciousness. The truth is we are all hurting people navigating through life. Life and who ever choose to become an accomplice to it, can have a time with you making you feel as though you are never good enough, strong enough, intelligent or pretty enough. It can make you feel like killing yourself or even more dangerous, slip into a comma where you are physically alive, but dead or sleep on the inside.
In this journey of my life, I talk with thousands of people who possess the power to overcome and defeat anything that comes their way in life. Some of us have never truly known what it is to have a really hard life, other than not making enough money. I fall guilty of being a complainer of the lack of finances and not being thankful of having a roof over my head, food on the table and gas in the tank! I take my personal stock and say I am blessed.
I choose in this life, to trust not in what I can see, but in the power that is working on my behalf to navigate my life in the way it is supposed to go. After all, it was all preplanned by God. If it was all preplanned by God, then I choose to trust, that at this very precise moment, I just came through one of the most challenging weekends in 2009. After a lot of promises by man, I have endured betrayal, abandonment, and lies that we have all encountered. I lost my closest confidant. Through it all I took the time to mourn, but now, I am back.
When the situation around me ceases to exhibit peace I know it is coming from one source. That source is not truth, has never been and will never be. After I dried my eyes, I sit here erected in my posture, head up and smiling. I trust in the plan maker. I trust in He who gave me life, purpose and power to walk in His glory. I trust...again.
Monday, October 5, 2009
FAITH!
In the Bible, Hebrews 11:1 says, "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
Faith is having belief in those things you haven't seen already!
We struggle in our faith because we can't see what lies ahead!
This contradicts the point of faith! Are you getting this? If faith is the substance of things hoped for and we haven't seen those things yet, because if we have then we more than likely won't have hope for it because we already have it; then when we worry we contradict the point of faith. The Bible also says for us to not worry. So then why do we worry, why doesn't faith come easy? Why is it so hard to believe the best will come to us and that even if the worst comes God will still provide what we need to no longer hurt from that bad!?
I love my testimony. God has brought me out of the hurts of divorce, physical, emotional abuse, seen me through days of nothing (no money, no food, no life), He has brought me through a weary land of going through the motions to filled with purpose and life. Through all the struggles, the hurts and pain, the fear and worry, the times I didn't think I was going to make it and the times I thought I was going to die, He saw me through! And like my grandma used to say, "This too shall pass," indeed it did. When I did come through and it did pass, I look stronger, feel better, am more alive than I ever was then! I have so much vigor and love just waiting for the timing of the Lord to do what he purposed me to do! Talk about a testimony!
Now, I have faith that seems extraordinary...above ordinary because it is radical it seems wreckless and careless to some, but I am not afraid to stand on the word. With a bold word, demands bold faith. God said, "TRY ME IN THIS!" TRY Him then in your finances, in your thoughts and deeds, in your coming and going! Try him to be the God that is the only God! The King of kings, The beginning and the end!
I don't know where your faith is, but your faith won't infect my faith with negativity. It won't pollute my vision to see, my ability to hear or my passion that drives me forward!
Stand on faith in the days that seem endless and the bills stack up. Stand on faith when you loose your marriage or your job. Stand on faith when the unexpected events come, because guess who they aren't unexpected to? So, when we stand in faith, we say, "Yes! I believe and trust in you God! You know my coming and going, my very being down to the hairs on my head! I trust you with my life because if doesn't belong to me anyway! I TRUST YOU!"
May your faith be increased.
Faith is having belief in those things you haven't seen already!
We struggle in our faith because we can't see what lies ahead!
This contradicts the point of faith! Are you getting this? If faith is the substance of things hoped for and we haven't seen those things yet, because if we have then we more than likely won't have hope for it because we already have it; then when we worry we contradict the point of faith. The Bible also says for us to not worry. So then why do we worry, why doesn't faith come easy? Why is it so hard to believe the best will come to us and that even if the worst comes God will still provide what we need to no longer hurt from that bad!?
I love my testimony. God has brought me out of the hurts of divorce, physical, emotional abuse, seen me through days of nothing (no money, no food, no life), He has brought me through a weary land of going through the motions to filled with purpose and life. Through all the struggles, the hurts and pain, the fear and worry, the times I didn't think I was going to make it and the times I thought I was going to die, He saw me through! And like my grandma used to say, "This too shall pass," indeed it did. When I did come through and it did pass, I look stronger, feel better, am more alive than I ever was then! I have so much vigor and love just waiting for the timing of the Lord to do what he purposed me to do! Talk about a testimony!
Now, I have faith that seems extraordinary...above ordinary because it is radical it seems wreckless and careless to some, but I am not afraid to stand on the word. With a bold word, demands bold faith. God said, "TRY ME IN THIS!" TRY Him then in your finances, in your thoughts and deeds, in your coming and going! Try him to be the God that is the only God! The King of kings, The beginning and the end!
I don't know where your faith is, but your faith won't infect my faith with negativity. It won't pollute my vision to see, my ability to hear or my passion that drives me forward!
Stand on faith in the days that seem endless and the bills stack up. Stand on faith when you loose your marriage or your job. Stand on faith when the unexpected events come, because guess who they aren't unexpected to? So, when we stand in faith, we say, "Yes! I believe and trust in you God! You know my coming and going, my very being down to the hairs on my head! I trust you with my life because if doesn't belong to me anyway! I TRUST YOU!"
May your faith be increased.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Stuck in the Rut
So many people find themselves stuck in the rut of life. They see hopeless days end only to awaken to new days filled with the same lifeless monologue of life. Kinda contrary when you think about the word life. Some of the definitions for life are: a living being; animation, liveliness, spirit; a particular aspect of existence.
We have all seen dead things in our life time. Dead people, animals, leaves, plants. We have even witnessed things that are still alive, on their way to death like our vegetables left outside the crisper, a bug we have squashed still hang on to some kind of life. I don't know about you, but I don't want to be like the barely alive tomato wilting away, molding, getting softer as the days go by. I want to be alive and animate, I want to be able to smell, feel, hurt, laugh, cry and all things that come with being alive! I want to be able to experience life and all it has to offer. People often complain about the heartache, disappointments and trials we go through in life, but when is the last time you counted all the blessings, miracles and happy times you have encountered?
If you are stuck in the ruts of life, there is only one person to blame...you! You have the power within to do something different. Doing something different is scary! Don't get me wrong, however, what would you rather do, sit in fear or push past the fear and live like never before? DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT!
What's the worst that can happen? You fail? You loose money? You have to answer a bunch of questions that make you feel bad and frustrated? Well, if major inventors took on this defeatist attitude, we wouldn't have lights, Internet, ovens, cars and the like! Some one has to take the risk! Some on has to think outside the box enough to blaze a new way of doing things. Some one has to step out and not fear! Why not you?
Get out of the rut in the land of halfway living and do something different!
We have all seen dead things in our life time. Dead people, animals, leaves, plants. We have even witnessed things that are still alive, on their way to death like our vegetables left outside the crisper, a bug we have squashed still hang on to some kind of life. I don't know about you, but I don't want to be like the barely alive tomato wilting away, molding, getting softer as the days go by. I want to be alive and animate, I want to be able to smell, feel, hurt, laugh, cry and all things that come with being alive! I want to be able to experience life and all it has to offer. People often complain about the heartache, disappointments and trials we go through in life, but when is the last time you counted all the blessings, miracles and happy times you have encountered?
If you are stuck in the ruts of life, there is only one person to blame...you! You have the power within to do something different. Doing something different is scary! Don't get me wrong, however, what would you rather do, sit in fear or push past the fear and live like never before? DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT!
What's the worst that can happen? You fail? You loose money? You have to answer a bunch of questions that make you feel bad and frustrated? Well, if major inventors took on this defeatist attitude, we wouldn't have lights, Internet, ovens, cars and the like! Some one has to take the risk! Some on has to think outside the box enough to blaze a new way of doing things. Some one has to step out and not fear! Why not you?
Get out of the rut in the land of halfway living and do something different!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Who is Marlo Wright?
Marlo was birthed out of a need to originally protect, but has evolved into someone I am very fond of. Marlo is the part of me that is sassy, smart and a total fembot. She is ultra over the top, on at every moment, the ultimate socialite, center of attention and person that everyone knows. Marlo is kind, but has no problem offering a suggestion or her opinion when solicited. ;-) Marlo is captivating and commands attention the moment she walks in the room or begins speaking. Her appearance is flawless. Ultra refined and regal, being a lady at all time, Marlo is beautiful, graceful and pleasant to be around. Her words are pointed yet encouraging and people really want to hear what she has to say.
As we decided to evolve Marlo, the more I fell in love with her, because she is the side of me that I have always been criticized for, misunderstood... Marlo is smart and confident. She loves a challenge and especially has a heart to help others. Marlo has a lot to say and the plan is for her to speak out about various things like relationships (healthy, divorce, singlehood, marriage, loving yourself), life(knowing your purpose, how to move in purpose), business (networking, building from nothing, thriving in any economy). Throughout the years, the experiences that we have gone through have been accumulated and will be released in different mediums like books, radio show and possibly a TV show.
Be on the look out for Marlo's first book, Blow Him Away, Save Your Marriage. Then say tuned for the launch of It's Marlo Wright...the talk radio show in February. Marlo's first book is about the experience and failures we had during an abusive marriage. God has since the end of that marriage, downloaded and revealed to me what I did wrong; how I was verbally abusive towards him. I was ashamed and immediately repented, then asked God to use me to help shed light on somethings that are so common. We as women constantly barade, belittle and nag our mates and children, then expect the best and to be treated like a queen when we act like paupers. We expect what we don't give, respect!
I can't wait for you to read this book and let me know what you think about it.
Take care...anxiously awaiting its release....Blow Him Away, Save Your Marriage.
As we decided to evolve Marlo, the more I fell in love with her, because she is the side of me that I have always been criticized for, misunderstood... Marlo is smart and confident. She loves a challenge and especially has a heart to help others. Marlo has a lot to say and the plan is for her to speak out about various things like relationships (healthy, divorce, singlehood, marriage, loving yourself), life(knowing your purpose, how to move in purpose), business (networking, building from nothing, thriving in any economy). Throughout the years, the experiences that we have gone through have been accumulated and will be released in different mediums like books, radio show and possibly a TV show.
Be on the look out for Marlo's first book, Blow Him Away, Save Your Marriage. Then say tuned for the launch of It's Marlo Wright...the talk radio show in February. Marlo's first book is about the experience and failures we had during an abusive marriage. God has since the end of that marriage, downloaded and revealed to me what I did wrong; how I was verbally abusive towards him. I was ashamed and immediately repented, then asked God to use me to help shed light on somethings that are so common. We as women constantly barade, belittle and nag our mates and children, then expect the best and to be treated like a queen when we act like paupers. We expect what we don't give, respect!
I can't wait for you to read this book and let me know what you think about it.
Take care...anxiously awaiting its release....Blow Him Away, Save Your Marriage.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Live in the Moment
Ever had a time where the past was holding you back from moving forward? Something similar to that tried to creep up on me, but instead, I CHOSE to live in the moment! We have but only one life to live, and as cliche as that sounds, it is so true and so note worthy. With so many people dying around us at alarming and seemingly untimely rates, it is important to take risks and live for today and not fear, which is the only thing we have to fear. How can you walk in fear but confess the works of God, they contradict one another because the Bible specifically states we are not made with a spirit of fear. If we are made in his image and he has no fear, then we should have no fear. Of course it is easier said then done, but is a motivating force that we must hold on to, we can do what has already been purposed for us to do. It has already been ordained, layed out and purposed for us...all we have to do is walk in it. Make sure you don't live too far in the future or stuck in the past, but live in the this day, the present.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Pressing Forward
In these times, we are all in the same situation! Bills are coming in and money is tight! I recently met a friend that is in the same situation as I am, unemployed;l the crazy part is that she made way more money than I did when we were both working but are being paid out the exact same amount! This is craziness to the system and the way it is structured, hence my new bog socialchanges09 on wordpress. Check it out.
Lately, I have neglected this blog because I have been diligently working on my next book which is actually written by my alter ego. I am super excited about who she is and what she stands for.
Just returned from Vegas and the Hoodie Awards, which highlights community efforts. It was an awesome show! And I was honored to be able to not only work them but take it all in as a spectator during the actual show. Our day was Sunday for the golf event, although we helped the event production team with various things all week. It was a lot of work, but well worth the efforts! I love doing jobs where the fruits of your labor are seen almost immediately or immediately...such satisfaction!
So, concentrating on God. Making sure I am on course for the things he has for me! It's hard work that got Tyler Perry, Steve Harvey, Mo'Nique and the likes where they are, my dues are being paid, but I am excited in anticipation of where God is taking me, the people I will meet along the way and experiences that I encounter! I love me, where I am and who I am!
Lately, I have neglected this blog because I have been diligently working on my next book which is actually written by my alter ego. I am super excited about who she is and what she stands for.
Just returned from Vegas and the Hoodie Awards, which highlights community efforts. It was an awesome show! And I was honored to be able to not only work them but take it all in as a spectator during the actual show. Our day was Sunday for the golf event, although we helped the event production team with various things all week. It was a lot of work, but well worth the efforts! I love doing jobs where the fruits of your labor are seen almost immediately or immediately...such satisfaction!
So, concentrating on God. Making sure I am on course for the things he has for me! It's hard work that got Tyler Perry, Steve Harvey, Mo'Nique and the likes where they are, my dues are being paid, but I am excited in anticipation of where God is taking me, the people I will meet along the way and experiences that I encounter! I love me, where I am and who I am!
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