Do It!

I find myself saying more and more these days, " You do what you have to do, until you can do what you want to do." That is the place I find myself. Doing what I have to do to survive! Literally it is a beast out there! I feel like the degree and experience I have isn't worth much more than toliet paper... and even that has good disposable use! It is a hustle out there, and don't believe the hype other wise. Everything is a hustle! Jobs are no longer guaranteed from one day to the next... have you heard that Chrysler is cutting 14,000 jobs! It is insane! The division between the haves and the have-nots is growing exponetially! Middle class is being faded out and the rich keep getting richer! What is a young, intelligent, african-american, executive minded, single female to do? (that's me)

I have concluded, it is time to get back in the game... like Jay-Z said, "I didn't say I was retiring from rap, I said I wasn't going to drop another album!" In other words, these past four years, it felt like I had retired from hustling hard core like I used to and trying to do the corporate thing, thinking I could make some paper and live comfortably... but they want to keep me in poverty!so a sista has to put her hat to the back and go for what I know!

Love

Ever been in love? I thought I had until recently! I have been exposed to a new, invigorating, pure, simple, true, unselfish love. One that goes deep into the very cells of my bloodstream...deep into the marrow of my bone! This love is so deep it penetrates every wall I put up to protect myself, every thought of sabotage to drive away the source, and resets guidelines in which I though defined love!

What can I say, when you have been exposed to the true love of God and how He really feels about you, there is no turning back!

Balanced

Many people think life is ran on tracks predestined for them to arrive at a certain place in life at a certain time and that if they stay on that track, all will be well. In the meantime, true life is passing them by and the glimpses of happiness that come from passing thoughts, memories or present situations are stuffed to a dark drawer in a closet people lock shut trying to contain the insides of those thoughts. Life can't be lived on the course that you have chosen for yourself but rather the one that makes the shift and adjusts and reevaluates where they are headed, how they will get their, what is true happiness and how they can live to the fullest. Life isn't so scripted that there isn't room for mistakes, although in God's perfect will it would be, but we fall short and sin and get off track. So, thank God there is mercy and grace and another path that was already waiting for us because He knew when we would detour and yet (He) is proud of the moments when we stick to the plan He drew out for us initially. God loves you. God loves me. But we must seek balance and life and purpose from him, not because of the course we thought was the best at the time in that point of our life! Remember, there is grace to get back on His track!

What do I do?

A question we find ourselves asking probably more frequently that not. I know for myself, I have had to answer this difficult, almost rhetorical question this past week. What do I do in the situation that is facing me? I know what I want, I know what I should do, but what is best and the least selfish route to take? I know the answer is right there... I see it, it jumps up and down shouting, "Hey you, it's me, the right answer, over here!" But I act like I can't see it or understand what it is saying, and then inevitably have to choose right. Because at the end of the day it is about respecting myself and others around me, being able to wake up in the morning and know I chose right in stead of selfishly.

So, what do you do when faced with difficult situations? Do you let the person have it because they deserve it and it makes you feel temporarily better? Or, do you restrain and take the road less traveled and let wisdom guide your path? Use your power to choose to do the right thing... you won't regret that decision, ever.

Well... It is here!

'08 is officially here... and it was a big night for us. We spent 6 hours praising and worshipping the Lord into and well beyond the new year! We have such an expectancy of what God will and wants to do in this year. Personally, there were several prophecies that weren't fulfilled in the time frame given, which were expected to manifest by the end of '07. Although they didn't manifest, I have no doubt that God is able and grace has been given for these to manifest. I know that in His perfect timing and will these things will begin to not only come to pass but will become fruitful and multiply! God is able, faithful and He doesn't lie!

What He spoke through the men and women of God, in my visions and dreams, He will bring to pass... when he is ready! I would rather not speculate on why, but what I need to do to prepare myself for when they arrive! But simply, I say yes to the process He wants to take me through before those things I have in my heart will come. I won't fall into despair or hope deferred, my heart won't become sick from waiting... for just like Jeremiah 1 says, God is watching to see his word fulfilled.

Don't despair, don't be discouraged, God wants to fulfill his purpose in your life...