When I grow up

When I grow up I want to be the best person ever. I want to know that I loved with all I had to give, gave all that I had to give and laughed through even the roughest times. Times are hard for everyone and people who previously thought the had it all figured out and on their road to retirement are now transitioning into an entirely different field an entirely different life. It's like we are starting all over again and are trying to decided what we want to be when we grow up.

Recently a college friend and I went for an afternoon of coffee, conversation and food. Come to find out, we had very different but similar experiences back when we were trying to figure out who we were and what we should be in life. It's been 10 years since I graduated and life has been difficult, much more different than either of us ever imagined. Although what do you imagine life will be like? Where do you have this information taught? Mainly I would say, it is taught in your home...there's no course, no elective that teaches what life is going to bring, what you will endure and how you will react. The pitfalls and trials in life shape who we are and sometimes causes us to back ridiculously absurd choices in life. We both shared the same sentiment of rejection and how, because we were unsure of who we were, allowed it to spiral us out of control of making horrible life altering decisions. Our question to one another is how do we prevent others from making the same mistakes that we did. The only way I know is to talk about it, and who ever listens, even if it's one, is better than having knowledge and not sharing it.

Makes me now sit back and rethink some current things in my life and the decisions that I am making. At 32, life is more precious to me than ever, its reminder that tomorrow isn't promised is all around, but this time I want to get it right. When I grow up, I want to know that its headed in the direction I want because I chose it instead of it haphazardly happening due to horrible choices.